I can't really blame my husband everytime he abandons me. I was very vocal about not taking our marriage seriously. I cry each time I hear or watch anything that has to do with weddings. How come there are women like them who looked so happy on their wedding day? Mine is just a huge revenge plot and sadly I really don't know who to blame. If there is one thing here on Earth I want the most, it's not really to get out of this marriage, but for my husband to at least be kind.
I am not sure how to react. I am sincerely happy for the newlyweds but I can't help but get really envious. I know I am not really warranted to feel this way. There are a lot of problems in the world right now so who would be listening to someone who had been very bitter about her own wedding? I don't know but I have always felt the odds are against me when it comes to romantic relationships. I have been very unlucky with life partners. I know there are others who maybe more unlucky than me but it doesn't erase the fact that I am still unlucky.